It's a New day

Baptism

2008-03-23T08:25:00.000-07:00

Today I responded in obedience to God's command to Baptism. It was a good time reflecting on my own walk with the Lord and on how I came to know him. Alot has happened lately in my life and I am feel at times that the struggles are really too much for me to handle. I was reminded today through a session conducted by Rev Goh on the topic of finding God's will in my life that sometimes we really need to surrender it all to the Lord. In short 'Let go and Let God'. He alone holds my future and has my well being at heart. I will trust in the Lord with all my heart and my understanding for the plans He has for me, plans to prosper me and not to harm me. Just when you think that life cannot get any harder, God allows for more hardship to mold us to be the people he has intended us to be.

Prayer : God, help me walk closely to you. Let me face each new day with the knowledge that you are with me and that I can weather through the storms of life with you by my side.

New MAC!!!

2007-05-17T04:09:00.000-07:00

Always wanted a laptop and I finally managed to get one and what more a MAC!! haha having a mac is really different from windows. It's prettier, operates bettter, has no virus and has really cool applications. Been spending time trying to learn and figure out the new operating system. Now i can download all my jujitsu videos and burn them into DVDs haha yay!!

Had my own jujitsu lesson online, learning from the Gracies on you tube haha. They really have good technique. trying to understand how to achieve the armbar from the guard position and not to mention my upcoming grading on 27th May. Stress man.

Tomorrow's gonna be a full day cos of Garage and i still have problems memorizing everything. Garage is an event that I'm involved in that seeks to bring the Gospel to non-christians through a band gig. It's gonna be a garage for chinese nationals so we're gonna be singing Mandarin songs bah..ha its been good so far and God has really kept the team together. Val's down with a fever so praying that God would help her to recover before tmr. poor darling. Gonna reach Emmanuel House tmr at 10am and start setting up til about 4 pm. The event starts at 6pm and ends about 9pm tmr so as you can see its gonna be a full day. gonna turn in early tonight to make sure that i'm well rested. trying to hold back the urge of using my mac til late cos its really addictive.

til next time.. see ya

Uncertainty

2007-04-27T18:45:00.000-07:00

Ever felt like you din know which step in life to take next? Well, just a few weeks ago, the prospect of finishing my term in Army was the only thing that seemed important to me. I've been on a two weeks leave period before officially ending my life in Army and this two weeks have proved to be a real challenge as I contemplate and think through what I am to do next in my life. Several options have been presented and I still have not been able to make any decisions. Sad to say, there has been alot of things that I want to do but my parents haven't exactly been very supportive of them. I know that I am of age to make decisions on my own but I don't feel right making decisions without the blessings of my parents. Sometimes this is what I really detest about parents who say 'I leave it up to you' and when you make a decision that is not what they expected they are unhappy. That is not leaving it up to me. Sigh, this is a real trying stage that everyone has to go through but some have it better I guess. Just when I thought the whole ordeal of Army was over, I'm put face to face with a whole new struggle. Really hope I see some light at the end of this tunnel soon.

Just lost my Wisdom

2007-04-11T02:06:00.000-07:00

Today's the second day of recovery after my wisdom tooth extraction, it was the experience i had been dreading for a long time. I had both my upper and lower right wisdom teeth removed a year ago and decided that i would wait til about a year later before taking out the other 2 on the left. I must say that the experience was a really traumatic one.

I reported to Alexandra Hospital at 9am in the morning on the 10th of april as stated in my appointment card. Dad fetched me there so i din have to wake up too early. The staff nurse called me into a room and took my blood pressure and asked me to fill in the document indicating that i was fully aware of the procedure of the surgery. A lady who had just underwent the surgery sat beside me waiting for the nurse to check her bleeding gums. The look on the lady's face wasn't at all assuring. She looked like she had been beaten up real bad cos of her pale complexion, swollen face and bleeding gums that stained her teeth.

About 20 minutes after the initial checks were done, the surgical nurse called for my name and i knew it was time to face what i had been procastinating for months. I went into the operating theater and they asked me to lie on a bed thereafter covering my whole body with a blanket. (not that the blanket helped to calm my nerves in anyway) The surgeon walked in about 5 minutes later and greeted me before explaining the procedure. She then took some cream and rubbed it all around my lips giving me a numbing sensation. After the cream, she took a metal syringe and needle and told me to expect a little discomfort aka pain when she injects the anaesthesia into my gums. The first 3 initial jabs hurt like crap and i could literally feel her injecting right into my jaw bone. After the painful part of the injections, she had me wait for another 3 minutes for the numbness to set in before commencing the operation. The nurse covered my face entirely exposing only my mouth and placed the operation tools on my chest.

When it started, it was probably the most traumatic experiences in my life so far. The pressure caused by the drill to my teeth was inmense. After drilling my tooth, she gripped it with a clipper and asked me to turn my head in the other direction she was going to apply the pressure and the tooth snapped apart causing a really raw sensation like a thick branch snapping into 2. To make matters worse, the surgeon said ' ok now i've gotten half of your tooth out, lets go for the other half. ' i was like 'great', one more round. After getting the bottom tooth out, she stitched up the gum and prepared to cut open the top gum and drill the tooth. After the surgery, i was really relieved that i never had to ever go through something like that again. It also thought me that no matter how tough i thought i was, even a dentist can break a grown up guy.

After walking out of the theater half the man i was before walking in, i was lead into the room where i saw the lady earlier before. I was told to rest for half an hour with a gauze in my mouth. A young man walked in with his mommy and smiled at me as if to say 'this guy looks messed up' ha. I later realised that the boy's mom was here to enquire about about the surgery and if her son could have all 4 of his wisdom teeth taken out today. haha now it was my turn to smile.. The doctor adviced 2 to be taken out at a time so facilitate eating after the operation. The boy kept looking at me while his mommy was talking to the doctor. After awhile, he interupted the conversation between his mom and the doctor and asked if he could have his extration done under General Anaesthesia(GA) meaning he could sleep through the surgery without going through the ordeal i had to go through. His mom thought about it for awhile and asked the doctor for her advice. The doctor adviced that if her son could take it that he should do it under Local Anaesthesia so that it would save on the surgery cost. The mom thought over it for awhile and decided that her son go through with the surgery under GA. grrr... lucky boy..

Really hate the experience, nevertheless, i am recovering well and managed to have chicken rice for lunch today.. second day and i'm eating chicken rice!! woohoo.. haha enjoying my Medical leave at home away from the darn army (place full of faggots).